thoughts on spring

I have the day off today I'm gearing up for a productive day, I already packed up a box of kitchen stuff and made orange scones with candied orange peel. they came out pretty well, I might've worked the dough a little too much and I substituted yogurt for heavy cream but I did use real butter.
James and I are thinking about getting a outdoor grill for the new apartment. I'm dying to steam up mussels this summer :) I borrowed a cookbook from a coworker and it has all these delicious recipes, I'm feeling so inspired! I'm planning on laquering our bookshelves/tv stand black and reupholstering the kitchen table chairs too. not all today! I'm geared up for moving onward and upward into a bigger place and so ready for classes to be done with

scone recipe:
2 cups flour
1 tbl baking powder
1/2 ts salt
2 tbl sugar
5 tbl butter unsalted in chunks
1 cup heavy cream/liquid substitute (yogurt/banana&milk/applesauce&oil/soymilk/half&half/eggnog)
1 cup fruit/nuts

glaze
1/2 c juice
2 cups confectioners' sugar
1 tbl butter
zest, finely grated

bake at 400f for 15-20 minutes

dreamt of being on the very high perimeter of a large arena, unable to get down and very very scared. the stairs had collapsed on me. i waited for help and then decided i could help myself get down and rappelled using a curtain and felt raptured having been grounded.

quote&unquote

"Assuming that you can control your negative thinking, this influence does give you the advantage of a sharp, critical eye. You can see what is wrong with a situation immediately and make the necessary changes to correct it then and there. But don't dwell on the flaws, just note and correct them."

my mother, she says

don't overthink things

i though too much

a fistful of skipping stones

I'm not sure if I hold to keep 

for defense or diversion

tensioning my patience,

I am angry and displaced

I do not know the Way

None is an island

and so I am a boat adrift

without an anchor

my fish is inured, 

his water is so dirty

I feed him twice a day

I do not like the pills

my body is so fucked up

I want to cry often

I have a visceral ache

and my bones grow tired

stop being so dramatic

I love myself in retrospect

and I want to hide from the past

when can I be happy now

what falls between

hindsight and foresight

is a lack of insight

 

there are seven

chakras/ages of man/notes on a musical scale/days of the week/levels of heaven & hell/pillars of wisdom/ancient wonders of the world/cosmic stages/rays of sun/days of creation

the rest of your life

I have so many plans.